Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Despair

Insanity keeps me sane. My delusions are a foil, for without them, I will see my life for it is: unsung, unremarkable, mediocre. My insanity keeps despair at bay. Till now I have escaped her clutches, but she is drawing near. I can feel her cold fingers circle my mind, and so, I feed my mind with more delusions. Anything to keep despair at bay, for once she has you, there is no escape.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Goodbye and good luck

I did one of the hardest things ever asked of me. Saying goodbye to my closest friend. And U2s Kite seems to linger in my mind:
Something is about to give
I can feel it coming
I think I know what it is
I'm not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to live
And when I'm flat on my back
I hope to feel like I did
And hardness, it sets in
You need some protection
The thinner the skin
I want you to know
That you don't need me anymore
I want you to know
You don't need anyone
Or anything at all
Who's to say where the wind will take you?
Who's to say what it is will break you?
I don't know, which way the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around?
Don't want to see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

It's summer, I can taste the salt of the sea
There's a kite blowing out of control on the breeze
I wonder what's gonna happen to you
You wonder what has happened to me...

I'm a man, I'm not a child...
A man who sees The shadow behind your eyes
Who's to say where the wind will take you?
Who's to say what it is will break you?
I don't know, where the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around?
I don't want to see you cry I know that this is not goodbye

Did I waste it? Not so much I couldn't taste it
Life should be fragrant
Rooftop to the basement
The last of the rock stars
When hip hop drove the big cars
In the time when new media
Was the big idea
That was the big idea
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